“I am a Lover” says the Mind

“I am a Lover” says the Heart

and they go in opposite direction

“I AM A LOVER” the mind says

and when the mind says that

it forgets that to be a lover

the mind cannot be there

therefore when the mind says

“I AM A LOVER” …and I want to be with someone to love

what the mind really means

is that I want to be with someone 

so that I can do and be anything I want

and beloved

the mind always creates separation

it cannot act differently

and so when the mind

think about “I am a lover”

 it is still thinking about the “me” …”me”

and therefore as soon the lover

 does not play accordingly to the “me” curriculum

 to the “me” agenda

then she or he is not a good lover

and so the mind will let go 

and look for another lover

when the heart says “I AM A LOVER” and I want someone to love

the heart is not concern about “me”

because the heart does not create separation

the heart navigates naturally towards oneness

and so when the hearts says “I AM A LOVER” and I want a lover, I want some one to love

what the hearts means is: I want to disappear, 

I want to surrender

the mind cannot even is it says so, it can never do that

because to surrender means to be in a situation

where there is no mind

for as long as the mind is there

we cannot be lovers

the mind when it says I want a lover

it just want to have everything it wants

the mind is not open to change

the mind says: when I find a lover 

I get to do anything I want

because she or he will love me unconditionally

and therefore i can be anything I want

because that’s what love is

some one who just always give me what I want

so i can change my moods all the time

he or she will understand because he or she will love me

and so I get to do anything I want

that’s love

if the lover does not give me anything I want

then he or she does not love me

so I am going to find another lover

someone that has all I want and can give me all I want

and then I will be happy

the mind when looks for a lover

is looking for someone that reinforce

the mind, that feeds the mind

the Heart when looks for a lover

goes in the opposite direction

the Heart knows that if it wants to be a lover

it has to give up the mind’s list of expectations

because to be a lover means to again surrender

it means to infuse yourself with someone else

so it is not anymore “about me” and what I need

the Heart knows that to be a Lover requires

to face all the fears of the mind

when the heart comes next to a lover

the mind immediately feels fear

because the mind knows that

if the heart wants to

decide to be a lover there will be no space for the mind

and so the mind come up strong

and start to give signals

sabotaging signals

and start to look for external reasons

to make sure that the love does not truly occur

the mind has to do that

if it wants to survive

it is just a survival mechanism

the heart when decides to be a lover

and decides to be with a lover 

knows that is going to be a lot of work

not because love implies work

that is not the reason

it is because again the mind will kick and scream at the heart

and will do everything is possible

to change direction

and so the heart finds a lover

and starts to surrender to it

and the mind starts to create problems

this lovers does not give me what I want

you see, he does not love me, she does not love me

because I do not get to do everything I want

this is not love

lets go over there

I think over there is love

the mind says

meaning I thing that situation is going 

to get me everything I want

rather then this one, this one scares me

because is so powerful

that I will have to give up

no, no, no, I cannot do that

it scares me

please heart

look how thing here are

this situation is not good

he or she does not really love us

because

by communing with this individual

we do not get to do everything we want

quite the opposite, we get to be

in a space where it si not about what we want

it is about 

what we truly are

it is about giving up our mind related needs

and to fully embrace 

Oneness

the mind cannot allow that to happen

and so the mind will find ways to get out of it

the mind is extremely astute

and will convince eventually the heart

if the heart is still not strong

it will convince the heart that that situation is wrong

and it will direct the heart the heart

towards other situations

that are more conveniently

aligned with “I get to do everything i want”

“I get to do everything i want”

and the mind will attract one lover after the other

and every time it comes close to the idea of disappearing

the mind will sabotage, will get out

and again it will find some one else, and some one else, and some one else,..

at certain point the heart 

will have to have a serious talk with the mind

the heart will say to the mind

I love you

you do not have to be so afraid

just trust me

it is going to be ok

you are not going to have to completely disappear

you just have to find the right space

your space is not

a space of dominance

space si not a space of leadership

you forgot about what is your real space

I am going to love you

and gently balance you to what you are suppose

to really be

you are not suppose to take the place of the heart

it will never work

if you take the place of the heart

we will both die

therefore I am going to take over from now on

and I will not allow you to

sabotage anymore

our chance to be lovers

I am going to attract a lover

and I am going to deeply surrender to her or to him

and when you feel fear

I will talk to you

I will show you that there is nothing to be afraid of

but you will have to

position yourself

in the right spot

you are not meant to dominate

you are not meant to take charge

you are not equipped to do that

if you take charge there will be only separation

and eventually self distraction 

the heart

the heart is the one that is in charge

you still have a very important role

because when you will fully be in harmony

you will wonderfully operate

so that the physical experience can function properly

but you will not have the power

to drive

to decide where which direction to go

your power is the power of the engine

not the power of the driver

therefore my wonderful mind

I am here to tell you that I love you

and I am here to tell you that you will always be

but you have to go back to where you belong

and when you will do that

everything will go perfectly….